i think ol days were better.....

dunno wts happenin these days at al.. life's fukd up...last three months have been really screwd up.. so many things happened dat i got lost nd stil m... i said previously no 2 ppl are alike or to say no 1 is similar to another..nw i wud like to add to that.. no1 stands for no1..u know wt it means? wil tell u wait.. my dad used to tell me that every1 has cum alone n wil go bak alone..u know i use to laugh at him..i ws like - wt d hell..sum philosophy..sum bullshit..dnt try teaching me al dis!!! hehe.. i ws such a dumbfuck... bt actually not.. hw i m i suppose to understand things i hv nt gone through..they would apperar as jokes nd shit.. even my dad mst hv gone through a lot wen he understood dis..i m sure.. coz even i understand it nw..

he may also nt b able to explain it as clearly as i m able to now!! wt he ws talking abt ws 'individuality'. this 13 letter word...ah...he ws trying to tel me that.. "learn to respect ur individuality ...the most horrible word is dependency...".. well yeah acually..he ws being quite complicated.very complex..bt he was right.. i understand now..

the worst thing which cn happen to u is u being dependent on sum1..reason may be wtsoever..frm my life in manipal..wtever i have learnt nd wtever i hv seen.. i have cum to sum conclusions:-

u should never let any1 cum too close to u.. u hv to maintain a proper distance with every1..the reason is..when dat person goes away..frm ur heart..frm ur life.. nothin hurts more than it.. trust me..
u hv to do wtever u want to do in ur life...exploring life to d extreme!! trust me no other feeling is even close to wt u feel wen u r at d edge!!

u hv to read urself..its very very important.. u hv to know urself.. we say ya i know myself..i know wt kind of a person i am..bt we actually dont. it takes lot more than sayin it..its too much of an effort bt yeah its worth it..trust me.. wen u cum to know urself..ur life changes.. by knowin urself i mean u hv to know wt kind of as person r u..wt u want frm life.. WANT AS IN REALLY WANT..NT WAT U NEED TO WANT....rite? ok..

ND D LAST 1 FR NW.. LEARNIN TO SHOW FINGURE IS VERY IMPORTANT!

wt i hv learnt frm my manipal life yet is quite vast.. i wil spill it out gradually... bt these were d conclusions drawn frm d lessons....

yeah at last m agreeing..manipal changes u as aperson..totally...bt again stil m confused..its manipal..or it happens at dis age.. do ppl change at dis age,,i mean in their thinkin attitude nd view abt life.. i think its age.. no i think its manipal. no i think its age..no i think.. fuck it.. i should stop thinkin nw.......

to wash who i m......i m playin d game...

no 1 is similar to another in dis freaking world..in any aspect wt-so-ever.... every1 is unique nd diferent..we jst assume...we jst think dat he or she is alike me or him or her....!!! quite confusing..yeah actually...bt its nt untrue... its not some stoned crap m scribbling on this sheet....believe me its abso-fukin-lutely true...frm inside i do feel dat m different frm every1 around..completely diferent....mind u.. by being diferent i dnt mean superior or inferior..its jst plain differnt .....yeah..yet i try to mingle...i try to get along....i laugh on their jokes..crack mine sad 1s...i too feel uncomfortable when d other person is sad around me...i try him or her cheer up....bt at d end of d day i wnt to sit alone in my room...do sum crap..bt dnt knw y..wnt to stay alone....recollecin things....M I LOST? there again..i dint ask u ..my reader..i askd myself while spillin al dis out.....

Though i try my best nt to b like dis..nd i succeed too...half days in d week i pass out drunk...either on my bed or on d mat below my bed...wichever i find nearer....bt d left half days....sum vry close ppl say they are terrible nd droning...nah..nt actually...its me..d kind of person i m....d way i wnt to live...its not sumthin unnatural or abnormal...its absolutely fine i guess.....its my way of life...i m made like dis..its nt my fault at al....i dn y m i even botherin to say al dis.... it feels as if m justifyin myself...explainin the world..hey! look hw i m!!...chuk it...lets move ahead....